Jamie

fuck this
fuck that

seriously fuck the world

everything is so damn complicated

im tired
no sleep all nite.

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this is totally lame
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bah.

i wish i could decide.

ipod back :-]

ungrounded :-]

computer back :-]

so im pretty damn happy now

ty you are the fucking greatest

thank you so much :-) tell dominic i said thanks and hes awesome too please :-)

you made my day this time haha

anyway i saw date movie this weekend
it was the dumbest movie i have ever seen.

cant wait for spring break.
but im still trying to decide if i should go to ohio or not.

im bored.

i miss someone soooo much.

its killing me.

ugh.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

why do things have to change so quickly and why can't we see it before its coming?
i believe if we knew when it was going to happen life would be a little less confusing.

what made me think i could go outside the life i live in?

we try so hard to control it, but bad things happen anyway. the only real control is anti-control, a letting go.

i wish i could lock myself in a room with music, mountain dew, and food and never come out until all the bad and changing was done occurring, but the world is constantly changing and bad things are always happening, so i guess there is no way to escape it unfortunatly.

last sunday, ruined my life and last week i went from having 3 best friends to having none.

i am a loner now. :-(

right now i wish i had someone to talk to, i wish i had a best friend who was real and not fake, and i wish i lived in ohio.

this weekend = a lot of firsts

never in my life had i felt so betrayed
never in my life had i felt so helpless
never in my life had i felt like dying as much as i did friday night
never in my life had i had so many tears run down my cheeks.

all of this because of the mistake i made on that sunday. and now, in about a week, im going to miss a night that i wanted to make one of the best times of my life.

yeah so.tootles.<3

so i want it to rain.then thunder.then lightning.because i love storms.

then i want to go dance in the rain with like 827367263 million people.

yeah that would be the time of my life. but not likely. :-(

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oh yeah. so im really bored. there is only one person that reads this. haha

okay ummm this weekend is going to suck since im grounded.

i wish i could move.

tootles. <3

ps. i miss my grandma

so im grounded..

and i got my ipod taken away. that was totally my life.

bahhh im lost.

and after school today is going to be HELL. no joke.

id rather die right now.

this weekend = worst everrrr

end of story.

last night = best night everrrrr

:-] :-] :-] :-]

i freaking the dentistttt

i have two lovely new cavity friends. this.sucks.

buttt - you know whats funny is that you can hear the noises the dental people's stomach makes because your head is like right by their tummies...hah i just discovered that today. it made me giggle.

after school today was fun but i wish i could have stayed longerrr.

:-]]

journalism is officially my fav. class. :-]]

minus the fact that mr. zeeb teaches it.

this one boy makes me smile. :-)

haha im sitting in biology right now...not doing what im supposed to be doing lol

i cant wait till after school ;-]

im in a happy-go-lucky mood.....

i get to go snowboarding saturday-monday, and im really excited.

its going to be my first time so ill probably fall on my ass quite often. either that or ill just totally biff it and fall down the mountain all together.

im listening to underoath right now, and i cant stop laughing, because half the time you cant understand what they are saying, and it just sounds like a bunch of screaming, but its radical and i love them. :-)

now i get to go to language arts class and sit by my cool friend monique and watch her do the robot to girlsrisewithHEAT :-]]

aloha.

i lost a ten dollar bill today. :-(
im really sad about it.

now im ten dollars poorer. <---somehow i dont think thats even a word but oh well.

today overall was fun. after school was pretty cool.


and now i get to go get my bl00d drawn...yay fun...except not.

:-):-):-)